name: Petrit Demo e-mail: demopetrit@yahoo.com alt: demopetrit@yahoo.com date: 8/12/2007 do you want your email listed: yes can others place your information else where on the web: yes support group: yes in the event of your dead or missing in action. do you want your personal account to remain on the mcf site: yes would you care to be an area contact for other victims: yes area-contact: Electronic / Psychotronics harassment contact-address: demopetrit@yahoo.com location: L;lirim Rr.Demokracia .P.1173 Vlore .Albania I am a supersurvivior of high ultra tech weapons implanted microchip microwave torture and remote mindcontrol 24/7 since October 2001 till this moment...My name is Petrit Demo I am 47 years old I was born in Albania in Twenty November 1960. I belive all started when I was 5 years old when I tried to sleep at night I use to have fears A shadow use to grow up in my eyes in order to calm myself down from fear I use to open my ayes and the shadow will disappear this was on and of .Till the third grade I did well in school in forth grade slowly I started not being able to pay attention to much I felt like something always bothered and takin my attention away and slowly started having difficulties with concentration this will grow worst and follow me all my life till the real horror take place when I got implanted in the years that I lived in USA as a continual of who was started up on me since I was a child .First time I got attacked where I really fill it was when I was ten or eleven years old I got noticed almost wamet as I was walking with my father I did not tell him anything .Almost every morning when I just to walk to school as I was been attacked where I would feel it in a head I use to question my self why I was feeing that way and my e energies was working of and my concentration was not all there and I will have quite unpleasant feeling all at once and having difficulties fouling the conversation in school never could concentrate even I tried my best thru these times and after that and for so long trying I use to got the impression that as much as I would like to concentrate to learn ore listening to the teacher was not working then I use to think that was not a point at all to tray to concentrate because it will not work any how. I was not aloud to ever learn when I would tray to study even I was really quick learner and full of talents . Anyhow my life went on with positive and healthy habits I use to draw pictures a lot a reading I lot a listening to the music and a lot of body exercising I was really good at drawing pictures my mom use to think I would be famous but I did not feel that way I use to read a novel a day and enjoy and remember at very little details always back then I use to wonder why I would remembered two hundred pages or more of every buck that I read and I could not remembered good a page or a half page of my school lessons after reading three four times I would got really tired upset could not concentrate as long as I had a school book in my hand and I would gave it up so the irritation would stop after that , why why why I was very competitive and I hated to see that happening to me that way. All my life I had fears where was nothing there to fear and I have never used to tell anyone I just tried to fight the best that I could but will really bothered me because was there and it will cut me off and was devastation my relation with myself in any situation in general the school relation ships and my entire life as taking much energy and attention from me .I could not explain it was my biggest question that I could never give my self I did not have fears doing different things which it will take courage that I would know other kids in my age would be afraid doing but the fear for me was there most or all a time and not go away .Cannot forget the eight grade that I had to graduate I had made a decision to learn I had a big fear to not pass the school this is natural so I stoped reading the novels and other activities and thinks that I used to like to do and try to concentrate in my lessons so I would pass and graduate what would happen was very unexpected to me I would read and read and not remembered nothing what I read and I would read again and again and could not remembered almost nothing of what I read I would forget it instantly how was this possible I was almost in tears why I could not remembered that way what I was trying to read but I remembered hundreds of books if not thousands that I had read and in mean time I could not really remember three sentences together I will repeat it again and again and it will disappear from my mind I could not remember nothing I was just I boy and I could not explain it all I wanted was not to be the best I just to pass the school because I know already I could not concentrate with the lessons without explaining why , I did not tell no one I hated to sound dam in anyway so I did what I could to pass I had to cheat in order to pass .to graduate and be equal with my friends.I was realy happy and relived that summer that I passed the school I decided to study English language that I like very much the three months that I studied was as same that I would studied seven years in school I was proud for myself and I did very much play and listening my music that I loved very much since a child I was very much connected to music and I be always listening to the big bands the music was my entire life I could imitate 95 present of any song from any singer that ever was I was born with it it was easy and natural for me I was able to transmit with very easy same exact emotion of any singer that I wanted to imitate but this is not my point what I want to explain is that I was not able to exercise my talent it seemed it was not worth to me I want to say that I could never keap the beat of the rythem I felt alavays wos somethinking in a way I filed like hypnotizet any time thet I wos singin ore playing kitare I could not never playe led kitar even I had a great natural talent to do it I played kitare almost my entire life till I left the country bot alavays acompaniameto I have bean my entire life stopet to do whot I could do the best ore ore be able to do thinks to work for me and so on and be myself . Evrythink to me that summer I thot wos gouin good till one day I head the first suden sueside thoot I chaset that thot before it came to me bot where thet caome from ? hou came in my mind I know that wos not mine bot did not know at the time at this technology so did not know why and hou come in my mind I wos very healthy and had a good life and very a caring and suportin family . My parents wos not hapy weth me I did not wantet to go in high school they were telling me to take an axample form my sister and my brother they both did very good in school they wontet the best of me they wontet from me to take their advise to go in high school really study and finish weth good grades go in university and bee somebody in life, I know I could not do it to study and learn the lesons could not do it as much thet I vould liket to countinue tu persue it so I wos telling over and over to them that I wos not gouin in high school bot without beein able to acplain why, I wos not gouing, for some reason I could not tell my parents thet I could not rememer the lesons they vould not belive me anyvays I wos wery active energetic and I read ewry boock that I could put my hand on they know that I uset to read till in morning they know I could be really god in scoohl b ot they did not know yhat I could not study and remember I never tolde them ore nobody alse I thot it wos ounly for me to know it I did not liket to sound that I could not do it.I told them I wos gouin to start to work and gouin in school in afternoon part time my parents were intellectual people my father wos a high up army officer he fight in word wor two and studiet politicks in USSR after the wor wos over Albania and USSR were in same side camp , my mother wos manazher acounter and they vantet the best of me the hole family from my both side of parents worket for government . Both my parenst were srict and carin people they educatet us well I had a brather and a sister I am in the midle then we were a hapy family till the times to come . I belive as remembered I wos in eith grade it wos sunday that day for the first time I could not woke up in the morning like jusual I could not explane why wos just another day normal nothing had happen to me day before I vent to bed like jusual and in the morning I felt like I wos uncounsios and like I ned to sleap more and more I could not got up I sleap till eleven this wos the first time and my mother wos not after me normaly she vould persistet till I vould be up she did not like lazy people she did not persistet like she jusuly vould do I know my mother at a moment I wos thankful thet she let me sleep and did not cuescion ore makin big dell my first day till 11oclock (they can control all the family meykin worke it the way they vant it ) later in life I vould have months at time sleapin till eleven oclock .and never ecplane why. I startet a job as a carpentner weth thre shifts relly did not liket and did not enjoiet I know I could do beter than that bot I know thet wos not for ever. I used to have really good sens a humor and a lote of jokes so I had a lot of friends I could make a relly nice conversations weth my friends bot sometimes I vould be not able to engage in conversation and not realy think clear onother times I would make jokes ore coments in atrative and smarte ways bot this had relly startet to bather me .Same times I felt like I could not have a conversation at all like I could not finds words like I could not think hou to start a conversation and ather times I vould bee leadin the coversation and holdin it up in good fashion where I know that my friends will lisened to me weth attention, pleasure smile and make koments for whot I wos talking obout, it wos times it would be kwite all the way around. everybody talking bot me naturally those moments are where I wos being atacket and being stopet and not aloud from concetrating and think . I uset to wike up really really tired all I remember is two days in my entire life thet I had slep well and relaxed and these two days wos in between I never had that luckery in the life to fill relaxed like human olways I felt intens. tired or irretitet when nothing wos to be erritaitet, why I could not fill thet way that I had felt those two days for the rest of my life? I uset to think back then everyday all most all my life when I wake up in the morning uset to fill like I just wos comin back from a hard work in pain an my concentration wos not there extremely difikulties to woke up and concetrate to begin weth after two thre ouers it will start to fill beter and then alvays dificulities and daily sabotage this is hou is been my entire life( bot this vould bee a paradise like kwite another great butifull world kompered weth ear implans and ather tooth implant I got injected weth and the horrible horrible torture kwite deadly I get these days 24/7) I wos around 16 jear old I Started to have real pafy eyse weth blacke lines under it this wos everyday in same ather days not often this my scin wos red in top of right side of my eye and wos abvios becouse I used to get cuesstioned from my friends and I juset to tell them that a insect my have bite me or I do not know I alvays known the red sine in my skin as I washed my faise in the morning and a night before wos not there. Thet is hou my life went on monitored sabotazhet irradiatiet harassed tortured,evry time manipulatet , tired, never fetl my self, life time hypnotizing evry action and emotion read and sabotaget worever I tryet to do or acomlish they tray to do their best to sabotazh it torturing me wethout me knowin and me traying to do my best not to show any kind a weaknes any sign of any broblem ever no fear at all of the whot I feeled from this devestaion that they tchuze to put me thru my entire life as much as I feel it I let no one to know ore spote eny sign of it . I wos over feftenn when I felt the first attack thet wos knowdest to me it wos wery fast like somethink pinchet my brain somethink that I could never miss I remember like is now when thet hapant when the attack wos worin of and as my conscious wos coming back I muved my neck up watching in the sky I wos lucking to the clouds I filed violatet beadly as my strength wos kwite woring off . I wos heavin dificultis in the work I never enjoyit feeled over tired my ears were very sensitive weth the noises did not enjoiet bot after I will get home and feele a litle beter I will start exersizin and playin my kitar and beein weth my friends. Sictine jears old I startet havin mikst thots I wos gouing in the school in afternunes then I wos being bombarded non stop for one word thet I wontet to say I wos ecperiensin to many mikst words I wos getting bombardet in same time and I uset to chose the best of to many that I head bot again I could not explainet even this wos happening to often when I wos thinking to myself too.I olevays neded a haf to one hour to follow asleep at night sometimes more , before I sleap I used to hear non stop all kind of songes alavays my faforite ones in the inglish American bandes in one occasion as I wos traying to sleap it wos an Italian song from Sandokan muvie as wos gouin in my minde the lyrics the song will eko ore come bac tome repeatelu same fraze non stop till thre ore four oclock oclock in morning thet night I thot I wos goun to luse my mind as much as I trayd to not think of it ore escape ,it went on repeatly in my head I wos carefule for many jears from that song to not starte thinking of it so it will not hapant again I hear the music and feel the music in my scull my entire life I don’t remember when it startet I belive sens I wos a boy I thot I wos singin it with my minde which in reality we can do that bot I know the differences now this went on till I wos forty jars old non stop. some times I will see the white spots as I wos getin these songes before sleap the white spotes I had them sens a boy .too . About that time I wos 16 jears old my sister had a breakdown my family got a coll from the the university where she wos studin her professor tolled my parens obout her situation,that night before they live to see her my perants toled me and my janger brather then ouer sister has a little problem thet she is not feeling kwite well and they vere gouin to se whot is gouin on weth her they tryied to minimizet the situation. So we wont worried much we were very tight weth each other . They left and when my mother come back alone told us thet ouer sister got comitet in psiciatric hospital just for a short time when I asket that were is our dead my mother sead thet he got comitet too an I sad why he is fine ,she sead that he got comitet in neorology , belive they wos efectin my ded too .I am suspicious thet same day that my sister got comitet to the psiciatric hospital my father got comitet too in neurology he wos at the army hospital both in same day in copitol sity .I wos very hurt and felt depresed ,my ounly sister I had, loste her mind she wos hearin voises in her head and who know whot alse she wos fillin at the same time . She wos evrythink that a woman wants to be byjutifull intelligent she wos one the best student and leader of the university where she studiet months before she just had win the gold medal as an best actors she did not studiet for actore ust very giftet she hed broke a national record she uset to bee a swimmer she wos unike a byitufull human being bot now she wos krazy by hearing voises non stop telling her to do things and havin sueside thots wantin to kill herself all ready .A month later I belive my parents brot my sister home my dead head come before out the hospital then when my sister came home she lucket so scared I gave her a hog and traied to make here feel home and keap her beasy to keap her avay from her problem bot she wos not herself at all weth that luck in her face she lucket teriified she would not talk much and wos afraid to go autside she wos scared for her life she is telling us all a long thet the secret police is after her, they are folluin me worever I gou she used to say she wos telling us radio stasinons are talking obout her TV stacion and people around her also wos wachin and talking for her too she heard woises talking to her all the time also she had halutinations too ect ect.(same exakt symptoms Ti s got ) My parents are in terror because she wanes to kill hersef and is havin sueside thots we are in terror too and are waching her every muve carefuully, to protect her we have hidin evrythink metalick, knife,s forks nidels enythink the we thik she can kill herself weth the atmosfere in the house those days is killin me and to all of us feeles like a wor is gouin on no one it is its oun self at home, it horrible to know juo love ones wan to kill its oun self and jou wayting for that to hapan any givin time saome like that is realy horrible and anberabale at mean time I am very depressed ( the worst and the most is because the manipulation of the situation thet I wos goung thru myself from mindcontrol combine weth the situation of my ssister thay will make me twise as bead ) the moments I hate the most these days is when I got close to home as soon as I take a luck to the windos of my house as I am aprouching I get a really bad fillin ore in the tecnical words I get atacket in the head and these moments that they monitor they never miss, anyway I have to take my turn to watch my sister so athers take a brake from that costant terror thet all are gouin thru from this tradegy in the family from these bladsuckers who are working night and day round oclock destrouin completely my family . Can not forget the fillin thet I used to get as I vould think about her where she wos and where she is now weth a great future that she had in front of her no doubt great career and family is over .She is telling my father thet she wans to end this horrible torture thet she is gouin thru she sead she wans to day lucking at her faise and ayse is abvious to see hou dawn and in pain she is , when I vould aske her whot is this torture thet she colled torture who is she being tortured from ? then she vould stop talkin I belive she could not explainet I trayed many times to analize to get to anderstand whot is she filling I wos very intuitive bot I could not come weth any conclusion because that reality would be completely out of my emagination at the time . I will cuesqion her carefuuly and make shure that we care for her we love her we are family and will let nobody to harm her then she will tell me thet evrybodi vans to get her the holle world is after her and she will stop and not say much after and I vill stop asking too to keap her mind away in defrent direction becouse watchin her in that dawn wos very much pain also for me, not to emention that who are monitorin is manipulaiting me too in same time in the top of it . She will keap seayng thet wonet to day and asket my father to give her his gun wich hi did he tuck out the bollets without her wachin and handed the heand gun tu her she tucke the gun put it to her hart direction and pulled the trigger after the gun went off she jumped a little and stayed still we wos panicking we know now she can do it she just pruvet that to us .(She did survivied she finish the university and worked on and of as manger because she is not aloud to live her life ore have her oun family many times I uset to wander where she vould be if she is not where is now she is in hospital the most of the time and over the jears she is disablet my mather gous and sees her ollemost everyday for 32 jears now) my mother never gave in it rely fills to me like really hero 32 jears pain for her she never never give up on her. .last jear alone my sister Irena survived 3 atemt suesides because she had and athers before in very beginin of the brakdown. And many athers where she will take all her drogs that she uses and almost died many times . One day she burned her self alive she wos lacky to survive because she did not screem bot a nurse wos walking by smelled the smoke, she wos on her rom obove the materes and blankets on fire tock her 6 months to recover bot her scin is very abvious is really big burn in mean time we ceapt her at home another time she had fever flu like simptoms and my wife wos takin care of her watching her temperature she brocke the termometer and swollued the mercury thet the termometer has she recover from that too the therd time wos worse we had her home weth us we used to keep the dor lacket and kep the kee to ouerselfs thet moment we had forgat the key in the dor and she left the home , right after thet she wos missin we went out to luck for her I wos afraid the she may herd herself as I wos draivin around lucking for her oround without knowuing where exately ,she had gone to the beach some body who knows my family and knows thet my sister had a problem see her gouin in the water then she had coll the cops wos in middle of October , she wos swiming as far as she can go from the shore so she could not maiket back by bein tired .I know she may be in trable just did not know where I wos draiving my car a round, and little after I turn close to the beach houpin to find her someware and houpin she is alive as I am driving I spotet a group of 20 people next to the shore whatching in same direction in the see side I suspectet somethink wos hapening , I turn oround the car to get clouser and as I get out of the car I am praying, for her houpin she is alive houpin thet these people wos not there because she might bee there as I am thinking I am lucking to the woter tray to focus and recognize if is her in the water bearly recognize her becouse is too far I see her she is in the midele of two man swimin in my direction to the shore where the people wos gathered I waytet there till they come out I thanket the cops for helping and got her in the car as we are draivin to home my mather stayied kuwite for a little not know whot to say my wife is kraying kwietely my mom wos asking weth haf a voise her why are jou duing this tu us why she is kwite lost tu say enythink as my mother is talking to her I am watchin in ryverviou mera my sister Irena to se if she gets any reaction from my mother words bot she is so so lost to react ,it feeles realy bad , I tray to kame my mother dawn tolled not to wory now she is okej, and safe weth us my sister is shaking really bad because is winter she lucket kompletaly lost and so bad and sciny like she is coming from hell or gouin there one vay or another , same like auschvic prisioneires her bones sticking all out an her fase is not even as big as a fist as all this is hapaning I know thet they are viun evrythink from my ayse these bloodsuckers . Before she trayid to draund she slouly cut the food and after that she went to a koma for two days from no apparent reason the doctores did not know why she could not eat my mother and my wife will bring her fresh food and tray to fead her everyday bot slouly she would not exepting it the food for a while we had her in hospital kepin her alive weth serumes,now she lucket like she will be ded any moment We kepet her home she stayed weth us for 6 months and we wos hapy for her she gainet wheit and lucket lik human being again bot before jou know it starstes al over again havin problems because they do whot they do the best they drivet her again krayzi she is not home weth us she is at the hospital at the moment as I speak is 2006. .( I canot anderstand why these sadisds people do not want too let her day in pise she is completaly destroyed she can absolutely not bee a threat to these bustards or to New World Order agenda in any way I probaly never get this why they akt like such exrime kovarsd and why they have so much need to shou they colers as kiminal sadists and boring lusers .) Seventine jears old I startet to not remember good the conversations weth my friens next day or after shi sead hi sead type think could not remembered details I wos getting more tolerant thet I realy wos I wos ecperiensin some new stranxhe think at the time right before thet I would want to light a sigarete I wos being hit in the in e head jus right before it and in the moment thet I vould tuch it I Vould clearly fee it and never bee able to expalinet why now days hapent non stop ever, bot more abvious sronger and brutal soon thet I tuch the sigaret ore I think of it to lightet before I tuch it endepeans I wish I could stope smoking because I am pain a big prise as beein realy realy bead atcket in the head and longes beadly because is atomaticaly aplaied nasty pain srceamin horrible bad and activeitng the implans instanly shutin me in brain weth extreme energy in hart longs very brutaly and ather part of my body bot I am very very adictit becouse they can meike jou such it soon thet I tuch the sigaret my brain get raped and now days when I am smoking the sigaret the smells of it is so so nasty this used to hapan to my sister jears and jears before when she uset to be under sick I used to wonder back then for this too why same sigaret from same packet hers will smell terebelly nasty and mine like normal smell like evrybosy alse is the same now days as hers bot tacke dekades before I found out . My a life never got beter for me just worse and worse olevays tired not good contretation and olevays still fightin back insictively never ever give my habets like jym I juset to do 80 to 100 push everyday 125 is the most thet I did plus lifting wheits bacile and my habets reading plain kitar and my friends bein sociable even when I had a realy difficulties and hard times . If I never exersized my body I vould never meid it so far alive even they can kill jou enytime if they decide so bot this is the worst way because for me is everyday experiensin near deth feeling the higher way of torture there is .I know now my mother wos atacket too I remember hou my mother uset to complain her entire life thet she had pain in her body or a sharp pain just went thru her body and hou wos she wos in pain all the time she wos very very energitick bot she wos on pain and olevays complained .Remember ven I wos in sic grade as I tray to vrite my entire heand writing chanichet in ounly one day in the morning and it never turn back in the way it wos as much as I tryied. to write the same as I did in the past, Remember one time as I wos having a conversation weth my best friend for an ouer a usual normal conversation wherever we wos talking as I would enser to the coversationit it wos the apeset thet I wos thinking to anser to him .it has hapan to me meny meny times bot thet wos the worst because wos constant sentens after sentense after sentences I wos over 16 then I feel thet wos realy srange and I could not controlet .. Remember my father had bad head akes and time to time he will bee in the beadroom for two days after 40 is he had hart problem we never thot he will maiket till 76 jear old .bot I will write little after about that To get the story short thet is hou other jears went on non stop monitorin and sabotaging worever I wos thinking did ore I liket I had to fight realy hard to akomplish ore never akomplish demaged torturet hypnoset sabotazhet manipulatet, tired, sleap deprivation , pain , onconcentratet, and all the bed thinks from morning to night life time.bot they remain onhapy weth it because alavays they liket to push me to the limits .In 1991 wos when the communist system wos over thank god.The borders vere open after 50 jears of the komunist regime me and my brother left to Grece to work there, after vhile there, I went weth him to get a uset motorcikle I uset to love the bikes , I wos raiding the bike back home I had to take the high way after a while soon as we got in the high way I startet haluseneitin wos a fenomen that I had never experienset before it lucket thet ather whiekels wos gouin back words right after we were ten minutes after riding the bike in the higvay I had rely good refleces I ceap my cool in this kwite sudden event for me this went on obout obout 3 minutes ust as I wos gouing to pull over it all stoped by it self, after that we got home safe weth no problems. I never had takiken any drogs in my life ore any medication ever .In Grece we lived together and were working booth for a same gay who onet the bisnes in constrations weth my brother he learnt kwick I uset to feel lost and I wos having hard time anderstandin and learnin my job right . I use to think that I did not liket because in Albania I had playid kitar I have very little jears work sens alevays I uset to do weadings for livin bot I learned somehow to put the marbol squares obove kancrite.One day as we wos working together weth my brother we cut the spaise where we had to worke in same sizes and startet woring putig the squares I can not forget I belive I wos 33 then I did twice as he did I used to work as 40 persent of whot he wos eable to do on that day I worket twice as he did he wos glead for me bot eather one could not explane bot everyday I will fill lost like I wos hypnotized wech I am shure I wos that day I wos rely imprest and shuerly it raiset the cuesicon why can not be everyday like this semes to me thet I had no even e chanse to know my ability of my self bot why? Always somethink in the way (the beattles song do jou get that message ?) now the days of wondering of whyes are over I am not imprest anymore knowin whot this horrible technology can do to a human . Anather case is again when I lived in Grecce thet day I wos really really tired bot leater on I felt very good it wos later afternoon I wos talking to some Albanian people thet I know and I wos leading the conversation all alonge I have never seen my self talking so biutifull for I wos amaset I felt like that day I could convinse enybodi for enythink thet I wantet and that feeled like wos so easy I did not had ned to think my words saundet very convinsin they had meaning worever I felt like master of my mind my friends just askin me thinks and I just ansered like totally deferent person wos so easy for me to maiket iteresin nice and the way I wontet and it feeld like totally different from usual I had a difrent maine from before wos I myself I don’t know for shure wot hapan that one day I wish would be for ever I know they are not there to bust me up and the ounly think I could think of is that they had cut off my signal and turn of the wave linket to my brain or samethik like that just thet one day I canot forget it I could have any think thet I wontet in compare weth the ather times of my life thet I had . I have a first cousin that lives in Usa Connecticut sens 1986 me and him asosiatiet back then before then he left the country and had many conversations aspecialy against communist regime as not being fre in many in general we hade made a plan to escape together from Albania to Unitet States bot he left weth some other gays thet I did not know and they did not know me so they preferet to not get mikst up because the national security wos extremely strong back then so never know whot hapan so he left and wos lucky one of his freands got killed in the border and the others survived and live in USA I did not had ather atemptets to ascape after .In Grece I spoak weth him on the fone and asket whot hapan back then why hi left wethoute me he explanet and did promise me thet he will maiket up for it fixin the peaper work near the emigration ofise for me to go and live there whech hi did after I got in male the paper work I went and got registered in some offise in Grece two jears after I got apruved to go in United States as legale to work and live there it wos nice not bad at all somethink I realy wontet sens I wos a tine eager beter late then ever to live in free counry Findely I got to JFK airport I rememer son as I got to the dor of the airplane before I got to the stears right there I filed an atacke in the head realy bead and I thot of it whot the hell wos that to my self ( this wos a welcome from these bastards) Maybe because it wos realy could in compare weth the tempererature inside the plane I wos thinking it wos July and I wos kwite lost as I wos wayting to get my bages I filed werde I fealt like my brain wos lost as I got out and meat weth my cousin who wishet me a welcome and left for Connecticut Thre days later I startet working at the pica place where two of my cousins were working there too there wos a gay who wos working as a kook he wos smocing pot all day long and repetedly he vould asket me if I wontet a pof of mariuana and I usually told him no never don it no thanks that day at work wos my cousin who worket in my shift he again asket me if I wontet to tray it I tolld him no my cousin sad whay not I did a pof too it is not so bad he said what hell weth that I thot so I did trayied two thre smolle pufes this wos my wery first time, it wos all that it tocke for me shortely after I wos all skrew up I wos feeling horrible all of the sudden as I lucket up to my cousin and ather gay name keeth to see any deference betuwen me and them because I wos feeling realy bead bot they simed okej and for me the holle world wos krashin up on me the guy who ownet the pizza place shoud up and spatet that some wos rong weth me so he told my cousin that he beter drive me home he then colled the other brother to come and pick me up I had 4 coucins which me and two of them lived together and two of them were maried I lived clouse to each other other two and I were single at the time and lived together it wos my wery firs month litle after my cousin showet up and droved me home as we went to the front of the apartement I sead that I vantet to stay outside because I could not breathe as we stayied there I laid in the grass like I wos gouin to day and right after that my body wos jumpin above the ground I wos havin loud woise in my both ears whech would travel in my head I thot my brain wos all scrued up for good now and never wos gouin to come back to normal to me I went thru this thre ore four oures weth this horrible horrible brain rape an bodyli pain I wos outside shaiking all over and vomiting my gots out going thru this brutal nigh mare the ounly think I could think wos if I wos scrued for rest of my life and never be me again . My cousin the one who I uset to hang out in Albania weth shou up after his work wos over and asket me if I wontet to go in hospital to check in I told him thet I vould be amberaset to tell there that I had smocket mariuana I do not want to gou bot the way I wos feeling wos not hard for him to convince me to go there to check in I wos feeling realy bad an totally rapet from ouers of this torture that had nothing to do weth 3 pufes of mariuana bot it had evrythink to do weth continuely victimation and increaly ritual abusation harmin and wrong douin up on me weth mindcontrol tech constant survillianses. I belive I had not implantes at the time as far as I know and this brain rape wos done from ELF wave. acordin to my operatior . very very rear they told me sameythink like told me ELF and anather time time Microwave I tell jou if amplifaied right they both are deadly I bean brot alemoust to death more than thausen times After over two monthes in Connecticut the cousin who I uset to hang oround told me thet at his job where hirin people I got interviued and shortely after got hired I startet working there as a second shift whech I wos glead to got it afternoon because the dificultis to weake up earley in the morning wos a job beter pay I wos okej weth it .Realy soon I wos getin so so tired worse then in grecce where I worket in a cankrete job.The factory thet I worket wos collet Wire Wind. Realy soon weth in the weak I startet hearing a humin noise right 10/15 minuts I got inside of the billding one day wos worst thet another that will make me feel lost and having realy hard time to andnderstand and organize my work because I vould be disorientet all the time that I wos at work place usually weth huming nosein in my head imposible to be organiset and bee able to handle the job right by the the end of the day work I will bee extremely over tired aspecialy when I worket over times wos extreme axascion bot I keep it going as much as it wos hard to deal weth .Nine months later I got told from the supervisior thet a had a check rotine from the earing doctor after his test wos dane hi told me thet I hed lost 40 persent of my hearing on my left side permanentelly and persistenly tolde me to live the job and find another one because more I woreket further it may demaget the ears permanentely Considering the words of the doctor and bein worried thet it my get worse I ust had fond out thet I had lostt 40 persent of my hearing I decidet to lisen to the doctor and kwit the job. The ounly sooporte thet I had of earning the living wos over.I wos rely depressed I had no other work thet I could get did know nobody at the time no proper language evrethink I had learn in ennglish language wos 17jears prior to that I head forgat weth constant harassment I feeled thet I had no many options left I wos getin brouke month by month weak by weak anythink that had savet wos gouing out to pay the bills rent and my living and not maikyng any mony situation wos getin worse and worse. In a mine time a freand thet had come to vizit my cousoin after learnin my situation sead to me thet he could houck me up weth some guy to get some drogs to surwive for a while till I gat a job I wos olemoust out of the mony I thot that will be the the laste option never been in troble before in life Ihad no prior record did not liket to do some like that never thot of it I alvays have made my mony legale in Abania I used to billd electric kitares and playin kitar in the weddings and ather thinks I wos debatin hard weth my self obouit it I did not like to risk and ended up in jale I did not know hou the system worket had no mony to protect my self in case of any truble I alavays thot in defense when it came to make difficult disisions I did had big long debates weth my oun self and after some days wethot a job for monthes I decidet to sell smolle amount of cocaine for short time of the period til I vould get a job (I never stopet after I started ) The jears thet went by I got to know and meet many good people round the place I lived where I had good times and had good experienses lotes of friends good peole and I got to say ewen I wos controlled and harassed and sabotaget I tryied to live good healthy and I wos completely integraiet and feel home in USA. try to be organizet in my best ability and make planes for my fucier whot I wontet to do ahead a time wos times that I thinket 5 jears a head now days I canot make a plan for the next day I don’t know whot I am gouin to do nect day because all I can do is tray to stay alive I am 99/disablet in constant kruell pure torture brain rape and body non stop beating destrouin my life organs one by one just because I can not komplay weth them in six jears they have told me may many times me they ere gouing to get me at the end. I belive in 98 I vos bein stalket now and then I vould see a convoy weth high beam lights on in day time bot I trayied to ignore the feeling that these people on the vickles wos there’re because they had some to do weth me back then wos not to often bot I can remember that and at the time when I thot of it got me to worie. I wos heaving rely pain in my body in musles and bones I hade an appointment weth the doctor and I wos deagnoset weth fibremalezia the doctore toll me they this desise uset to be belived thet wos in the peoples mind bot now is pruvet the it is tru bot is not cure for it I told her thet I wos in the a lot of pain and it is far from bein in my mind .this went on for a lot of monthes.sometimes I uset to punch my legs weth my fist from the paine as much as I could in one occasion my ex girl friend wos lafin off watchin me douin that.bot I will say they were byutifull times for me I miss them very much I vould be hapy if I have to punch my legs everyday for rest of my life as long as I lived just not to go thru this kayind of the worst pain and torture that these sadist are inflicting inmercifully these 6 jears kwite deadly where all my bones feeles broken and I can scream and cry all day a long everyday I had never had a rest from it they have condicionet the parts of my body the way they vanet in realy extreme ongouin pain head ,hart ,longs and legs they brutalizet me so beadly now they don’t ned to much time after inflicting pain they make me moanin in front of my family, most of the time I am not avare as I start till I get to relaze it ,ore when my mom will aske me whot is gouin on but she know the enser I will say I am oky when I am with my friends I start swearing of these bastards who are killing me bringing me clouse to death any time the desired and that is the mostely whot that they like to do to me . for monthes of perid of the time they will weake me up I will be moaning for 20 minutes at a time in super extreme pain like four times at the night in front of my wife as I am at sleap it is like these lusers want all the enjoyments each shift that they work.