name: mary

e-mail: mary@daclubhouse.net

date: May 17, 2007
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contact-address: maryfair@daclubhouse.net

location: Southern California

your-introduction: Following is my story:

My name is Mary and I'm 53 years old.  In hindsight I now
realize these people have been with me for a very long
time.  It started around 1983 when I dislocated my hip in
a water ski accident.  I went to church one day hobbling
along on a cane and the most miraculous thing happened.  I
was listening to the priest talking at the pulpit and when
he left a healing service followed.  I first started
seeing a cloud of light smoke all around the alter, and I
thought this was a sign from God.  I was instantly healed
that day from any pain in my hip.  I began having an
incredible closeness with God that I thought was from
Him..  It was from Him but I found out later it was not
ONLY HIM!  A couple of years later I went through some
terrible personal difficulties that led to divorce (I have
since remarried my husband in 1999).

My Hell started in 1991.   In my personal struggles I
found it difficult to deal with life.  I was so alone and
scared after my divorce.  I resorted, unfortunately to
taking some serious street type drugs.  After a few months
of this is when these handlers came on board.  At the time
I thought it was some law enforcement agency that became
aware that I was taking some illegal drugs.  They were
doing things to make me feel paranoid and it did cause me
to quit taking the street drug.  However, when I stopped
taking the drug they still continued going after me.  I
knew my system was clean of drugs for weeks but they were
still after me…I couldn’t understand what was going on at
the time.  I didn’t feel I deserved what was happening to
me.  Looking back I would have much preferred getting
arrested for taking an illegal drug.  Forced into a rehab
and then continue on with my life.  Instead I am now a
prisoner for life in a constant Hell hole.  These handlers
say it’s because I had taken that street drug…which I only
took for a few months…If they really cared about me at all
they would never have sentenced me for life with them like
this!  I had been a good citizen who never committed a
crime.  My only crime was being a newly divorced, single
mother who was scared and lost.

I found out in due time that it wasn't God that healed my
hip...it was them!    My faith and my ability to pray was
being attacked by these people and I became a lost soul.
In my heart I knew God had not left me but I was angry.  I
was left in the hands of these terrible people!  I hated
them for the processes they were putting me through!

My life was just like a scene out of a television show I
had recently seen and it had brought back some terrible
memories that happened 16 years ago.  In the scene…a
homeless, desperate woman, strung out on drugs was
kidnapped and placed in a large empty meat packing plant.
When she woke up a voice came over an intercom…she was
told that she had exactly two hours to find the exit
before she was going to be slaughtered with an electric
knife that was going to cut off each of her limbs and then
her head while alive…she was being terrorized just like I
had been and almost in the same way in the nightmares
these handlers had imposed upon me.  She was shown what
was going to happen to her by showing her the dead bodies
and blood of the other victims.  In great fear and
distress she started running down dark corridors where
there were no windows…the doors went no where…she found
one door that was barely chained…she put her weight behind
the door… breaking it open only to go crashing head long
on to a floor strewn with glass!  She now had to crawl and
walk through the glass to get to the open door that had
automatically opened…that was her escape…only when she got
there she found out it was not an exit at all but just
another maze of doors….she was tormented like this for two
hours…she was eventually caught by him but was rescued by
our heroes in the end…her last line to the perpetrator as
she was being wheeled out on a gurney was “I win!”  This
scenario was just like the many induced nightmares my
handlers had given me.  I would wake up in such terror …
then when I was awake …I would live out my nightmare in my
own home with me trying to find them…they would inflict
all kinds of mental, psychological and physical tortures
and games…as I feared for my very safety…because my home
was invaded by them!  I remember saying to them at one
point before they knocked me unconscious “I got you!” as I
saw three black figures entering my bedroom.  Then my
sleeping nightmares would begin again!  16 years later I
am not chasing them because I’m aware of how they do
everything and the type of technology being used on me
however my living nightmare with them has not ended.  It
just changes as my life changes through the years.

In the beginning though before I knew what this technology
was they kept me frightened day in and day out!  They made
me feel like I was being stalked by invading my house when
I wasn't home. In my fear I set up coke cans in front of
my door so I could hear them if they entered.  During the
day I heard the coke cans being blasted apart.  I ran to
the door but no one was there.  Later they told me it was
a sound burst that knocked the cans apart but at the time
I didn't know it and thought they were inside my house
with me in it. There was evidence an intruder had indeed
been in my home.  I felt unsafe in my person.  After about
a year I found a secretarial job (I had not worked in a
long while from being a housewife for 25 years).  At work
I felt everyone was against me and later I was told that
my handlers made them say and behave that way to make me
feel paranoid.  Eventually I lost my job, it was too
difficult for me.  They had me believing that my family
was behind this, then it was the police behind this, then
it was the FBI behind this....eventually I figured out it
was none of them but these handlers controlling
everything!  When driving home from work... cars would
pull out in front of me causing me to slam on my brakes
ALL THE WAY HOME.  Later I learned that the handlers were
able to do this just by controlling the people driving the
cars...causing them to do this.  At the time though I
thought a whole army of people were out to get me.

During this time period in 1991…I was very paranoid.  When
they started talking to me in my head  I could actually
hear audible voices, smell things like gas in my bedroom,
falling asleep with terrible nightmares.  Then the
physical attacks started.  I felt needles in my feet and
whole body, I had unusual skin rashes on my body.  They
would paralyze me in my dreams or dream of satanic
attacks.  I would wake up sick and frightened.  Sexual
attacks started and terrible sexual dreams.  I would hear
car horns honking and sirens that seemed to answer my
thoughts.  As recently as 2006...while on a cruise ship in
the dead of night...I was physically being tortured by
them ....they impressed upon me how powerful they
were ...there were high winds that night ... they
additionally terrorized me by showing me that they could
control the waves and the ship itself ...LITTERALLY!  With
giving me thoughts of what they were about to do...THEY
CONTROLLED THE ACTUAL MOVEMENTS OF THE SHIP...THEY
CONTROLLED THE WAVES...AND BOY DID THAT SHIP PLUNGE DEEPLY
INTO THE SEA....THEN THEY HAD THE SHIP SEEM TO SKIP AND
SHUDDER...THEN THE SHIP ROLLED FROM SIDE TO
SIDE...EXPERIENCING THEIR POWER WAS TERRIFYING ...they
stopped moving the ship about after 10 minutes!  I realize
this sounds crazy but they actually did do this...the
ship ... for a short period of time ... seemed to
destabilize!  I realized they could if they wanted to ...
create a huge wave that would overturn us...and drown us
all!   They told me they were in control of absolutely
everything in my mind and body and controlled all the
people around me AND all the elements around me ...
including wind, water, and climate!  At home they showed
me how they could start and stop rain in an instant ... on
another occasion the rain was pouring down with high winds
and suddenly the rain and wind stopped on my side of the
street but continued to pour down across the street...I
couldn't believe this!  While sitting in my backyard they
talk to me with the wind...when they're angry they'll hit
me with a huge gust of wind with thoughts given to me of
what they want from me….if I calm down they’ll blow just a
light breeze on my face (no real wind needs to be present
for them to accomplish this}.

Additionally, they showed me how they control what People
would say and do around me.  They control what newscasters
say on television that seems to answer my thoughts or to
berate me!  Television programs and commercials suddenly
will have new meanings from their thought energies into my
skull and then maneuver my emotional and physical state of
being, to match their messages...they showed they can
communicate with anyone, anywhere, at anytime!  They
control me and everything and everyone around me.   They
say this is all done with sound and that I don't have
implants and the people around me that are being
manipulated don't have implants too...What I want to know
is How in the heck does this all work?   They say it is
just from sound and the use of satellites...but they lie
sooo much I'm not sure how much of it is true.

I find it difficult to want to live sometimes.  These are
recent thoughts…I’ve never and I mean never had suicidal
thoughts before…but I just can’t seem to get the energy
anymore to want to continue another day with them.
Everything seems so futile with them…no matter what I
do “I can’t WIN”!   I have terrible thoughts of realizing
I have to live with them for the rest of my life... they
do manipulate my emotions during those periods to make it
seem not so bad...they make me forget how bad it really
gets with them so I can live the next day....When I wake
up in the morning (if I had managed to get any sleep at
all) a terrible gripping feeling enters my stomach.  I
realize I have to live with them this day and what is my
day going to be like…what are they going to do to me that
day…the mental torture causes me such grief that they now
habitually place a terrorization feeling into me on
purpose (this has recently stopped for now)…they tell me I
have a poor attitude and in order to survive at all I had
better change my attitude.  When I submit to their will
and do my very best at having a good attitude (they help
me forget how bad it is) I have a good day that lasts
until about 5 pm then they start in on me that cause me
such physical and mental torments and pressures.  I
literally climb the walls and get angry at them all over
again.  This endless circle is what I live with day in and
day out. I’m going crazy!   I'll go out in the backyard
and have a cigarette (I started smoking again in order to
cope)...They then would cause me to calm down with just a
flick of their switch or the turn of a knob.  In tears I
would cry out to God to save me. In hopelessness and
despair I say I no longer want to live... then another
cycle would start!  Is this ever going to end?  They tell
me I need to have a good attitude ... it will make it
easier on me to live with...I do this....and it does work
for short periods of time...but then they pull the rug out
from under me with no apparent GOOD REASON!  Then I'm left
with the fear of them AGAIN!  It only gets better when
they “say so” and only as long as they want it to last.

What I’m learning is they can’t be trusted to keep things
on an even keel…that I will consistently be challenged to
overcome their torments and physical abuse they crush me
with…and that if I don’t get over it quickly I’ll become
depressed and despondant….I never do get over it quickly
enough so I don’t know what life would be like if I do…all
I ever want to do now is give up on life.

In recapping I just want to say to the authorities who
hopefully will someday read this that I want justice and
peace for the few remaining years left in my life.  I want
to say that for the last 16 years (it is now May of 2007)
that they have caused physical attacks that caused me to
be traumatized.  I've been hospitalized and I didn’t need
it(again I was running from them seeking refuge somewhere
but that was futile).  I’ve been misdiagnosed because no
one believes me... given antidepressants (which I no
longer take because it won't help me).  I no longer want
to take vacations (I fear what they'll do to me when out
in public which takes all the joy in wanting to travel to
disappear).  I no longer feel I'm able to work because I
fear their manipulations of me and those around me will
cause me distress and embarrassment causing me to fail and
lose my job again...I no longer see friends because I fear
I'll be carrying on an arguing conversation with them in
my head and simultaneously trying to talk to the person in
front of me.  I dread having family over because I never
know what will be happening to me at the time...I rarely
go to church because I'm in mental arguments with
them...they don't let me pray and say what I want to
say...I no longer have my private prayer closet.  They
take the joy out of EVERYTHING!  When I'm calm with them
which is on rare occasions I will sometimes feel joy ...
and sometimes able to pray…but this doesn’t happen very
often.  I’m unable to avoid them and forced into a
relationship with them.  It is too bad that I’m not able
to live by their laws and rules…my life might be able to
be more manageable if I did.

What I want to know is...if they are supposed to be good
Samaritans which is what they bombard me with in my
brain.  Where is the safety?  How can one live a
productive life without feeling safe?  They purposely
apply much pressure in the most mundane situations to make
me work harder.  However, I find it too difficult to
function when they apply such pressure in my body.  They
increase my heart rate and apply a hugely uncomfortable
pressure in my vaginal area or whole body area where I
can't think straight... or manipulate my nervous system
that drives me right up the wall (I can't put this part of
their torment into words because I find it difficult to
describe)!  At the end of a very difficult day with them
they point out all the things I did not do that day that
they felt I should have done.  Now we are talking about
the most absurd.  Such things as....I should have vacuumed
the third bedroom or I should have been more polite and
considerate to my husband.  Because I didn't do these
things they torture me endlessly... physically and
mentally....sometimes with no sleep for hours on end....I
crawl on the floor begging for God to help me....I scream
in such agony my husband will wake up and try to calm me
down....they tell me in my head "no one can help
me ...only them ...and that I better face them and deal
with just them".....eventually, they will give me
relief.....usually around 5 am after I've fallen asleep on
the couch with terrible dreams of course... with all of
this to face when they eventually wake me up....with only
2 hours of rest....but of course they manipulate my body
to make me feel like I've had 8 hours of sleep ... but so
tormented and anguished over the thought of having to live
with them I don't have the will to get up.  They tell me
if I don't get up and put my “nose to the grind stone” it
will happen all over again and I better have a good
attitude towards them or they will make my life a living
HELL!  16 years ago I had a great faith in God, good
habits, a non smoker, good work ethic, dependable, smart,
loving, hard working and slim!  AT 53 years old the only
things I have to look back on for the last 16 years of
what I’ve accomplished is blaming them for turning me into
a raving maniac barely able to pray to God…little faith…
little hope…desperate…depressed….smoker…overweight…unable
to reach goals…the feeling I can’t  lose weight or stop
smoking because it must be done their way or no way at all…
it has become “no way at all” with them because I’m unable
to follow their rules.  I no longer have desires to keep
relationships with people out of fear.  I don’t feel
grounded much of the time.  I think about things such as I
can’t feel my feelings because I must shut them off (I do
this trying to avoid their manipulations of emotions in
me).  I think about death and dying…wishing I was free as
a bird or even wanting the life of a bird or a horse
instead of my own life…wishing God loved me as much as
that beautiful flower that grows…wondering why He doesn’t
rescue me because I’ve always lived a charmed life where
His presence was always there when I needed Him and He
would come to me instantly sending me Peace when I looked
for Him…no matter what difficulty I was facing…I think
about how far from being a saint I really am (I use to
pray to be a saint for God}.

I've recently found out from them even if I become
perfect... which is impossible...they will still torture
and torment me...for reasons I cannot fathom.  They say
things like "we don't want to make things too easy for
you".  It makes no sense!  Yes. they are capable of making
something easy but they don’t do it!  They make you feel
that you need them in order to live…but if my memory
serves me correct … I lived a good life without them and
would be able do so again if they would let me.  I beg
them for this and they get angry because I beg…they want
me to be strong but I’m not strong anymore….

I could use a friend to talk to....please help!

MaryFair@Daclubhouse.net

Following are my personal experiences with these people.

Street theater incidents and invasion of my home:
1. Clothes; all had pulled seems in the material.
2. underwear all had holes and rips in them.
3. when shopping for clothes …they would place red
threads them …. Making sure I was aware they were going
before me and knew in advance where I was going…they would
put red threads in front of my work office door…these
floors were vacuumed regularly…again giving me the mental
thought I was being watched and they knew where I worked….
4. They caused my supervisor to have extreme
emotional swings toward me…they caused my computer to
malfunction…they caused me to not be able to work in that
environment and I was eventually “let go”….it was
humiliating….I am a bright, intelligent person, and have
always succeeded in everything I’ve ever done….they had me
so emotionally upset I actually lost a job because of
these torturous people!  How dare they put me in those “no
win” situations and cause me such distress that I would
lose a very much needed job…I was a single mother with no
other support to pay my bills…I almost lost my house…could
barely buy food…creditors on my tail for unpaid bills…I
needed that job!  They were slowly but surely isolating me
from everything and everybody…I felt so alone and
persecuted!
5. In my house telephone wall sockets were changed to
some huge complicated mechanism I did not have before.
6. constant wrong numbers
7. pillows in my son’s room had the schematics of the
inside of my home lightly drawn on the pillows
8. I found paint and dirty towels in the garage near
my washing machine to show me they changed the inside of
my house.
9. a huge, long, thick dark black hair (my hair is
blond) found on my bedside table…again, making sure I knew
someone had been in my house that day…it was left
purposefully for me to find….the black hair matched one of
the women I saw stalking me.  I’ve seen these two women
several times, one had black hair and the other had blonde
hair and they were in their mid thirties.
10. my brother chased someone from my back yard, over
the block wall into my back alley…he chased him a couple
of blocks and lost him in a parking garage.
11. Two women watching me through a reflection in my
son’s glass picture frame which bounced off the back
window facing a two story structure.  They were standing
on the steps smiling at me…these were the same two women
I’ve seen several times before!
12. Red laser light glaring at me in my bathroom
mirror showing me I’m being watched coming from the window
behind me.
13. shadows on the ground outside of a person when
there was no person around
14. seeing dark clothed person inside my house peeking
around the corner when I was laying down on the couch
15. street lamps would turn off …one at a time … as I
would drive home
16. my carpet was electrified when I would walk on it
throughout my house.
17. the smell of gas in my bedroom when I would try to
fall asleep …. They gave me the feeling I was being
knocked out unconscious.
18. Hologram images on my body… I could see cartoon
characters as if  it was imprinted on my body, these same
characters were also on the ceiling in my house of course
only I could see it…eventually these images in my minds
eye went away!
19. a tree outside my house seemed like it was cut
into characters of owls which happened overnight….again it
must have been a holographic image seen through my eyes
only
20. a person in front of my house pretended he was a
utility man but he was doing work by himself at night…
changing a water meter in the ground…he gave me a creepy
feeling and the situation didn’t look right.
21. while driving in a car with my sister a whole
group of people that were quietly standing at a bus stop
instantly started fighting with each other then jumped in
front of my car
22. In another incident my car was damaged by someone
knocking off my rearview mirror
23. constant car problems such as my wind shield
wipers would automatically go on every time I started the
car … difficulty getting my keys to work in my locks…
engine troubles galore…this car was barely 5 years old
with no previous problems…now it consistently breaks down!
24. Radio being placed on Spanish stations each time I
turned it on in my own home …I don’t listen to Spanish
stations nor can I speak Spanish…this happened several
times over a two week period…at the time I was a single
mother living alone at times …these incidents were when my
children were visiting their father.
25. Spanish people walking up to me and asking me
questions in Spanish
26. My artificial finger nail case that I kept in my
closet had masking tape around it with hieroglyphic
writings on it.
27. Constant dog poop on my front lawn and backyard…I
don’t have a dog.
28. Odd things being placed in my backyard such as gun
shells.
29. horns honking and sirens that matched what I was
thinking while lying in bed at night
30. I saw parts of my kitchen on a television show…it
did not match the background of the Christian station that
was being broadcasted
31. Repeat of scenes on television programs
32. Placement of rats and large rodents on my block
wall to frighten me.
33. placement of cockroaches, bees, spiders in my
immediate surroundings
34. Being chased by bees that reacted to my thoughts
35. Banging noises and crackling of ceiling…
doors….walls….all electrical appliances and the television
set

Bodily function problems:
1. Feeling like I needed to urinate immediately every
time I would go into a grocery store
2. Feeling pins and needles in my feet to the point I
could not even walk
3. unusual skin rashes on my arms and left hip and in
both ear canals and on eye lids
4. my right eye (for a short time) had a yellow film
in the corner on my eyeball…like a cataract (gone now)
5. A huge scratch on my left hip suddenly appeared
with a huge rash around it after waking up the next
morning…someone did this to me in the middle of the night!
6. pain in my teeth….sudden bleeding gums
7. Ringing in my ears that was sometimes excruciating!
8. heard loud noise outside in my back yard that
glass was being smashed … I ran out there bringing my
mother with me who said she did not hear anything….and
there was no glass on the ground….only I could hear it
being smashed
9. Slowly being forced to sleep…as if someone had
drugged me…I fought to stay awake waiting for the perps to
appear in the room….just before I was completely knocked
out I saw three figures dressed in all black entering the
bedroom from the closet…I remember telling them just
before slipping into unconsciousness “I got you!”  A few
moments later I was startled to a wide awake noise of
glass being smashed…of course no glass was ever found.
10. Terrorizing nightmares being chased in mazes with
someone after me in every corner…I could not find my way
out….these nightmares were induced by them…I would wake up
in terror … too afraid to fall back to sleep
11. Nightmares of being paralyzed and not being able
to move; such as me in a car and not being able to step on
the brakes! Someone after me and not being able to run!
12. nightmares on different nights were;  of being
burned alive…being shot twice in the chest…cartoon
episodes that would turn hellish….sexual nightmare dreams…
skin flayed on my whole body as if being melted away from
extreme heat…satanic nightmare attacks
often….Spiders….rats….cockroaches….snakes
13. Sexual rapes while wide awake by them manipulating
my body…they know I hate this tactic by them and fear them
doing this to me…I cry for hours afterward …eventually
they allow me to fall asleep usually around 5 am. However
sometimes they don’t allow me to sleep at all…they will
put my body in a deep rest mode and keep me still as if
I’m in a stupor…they will allow me to listen to Christian
music with my earphones on….it can be very extremely
soothing….they make it so you can exist as a human being
but only just enough.
14. Twitches in my extremities….aches and pains as if
a knife was being stabbed into me…extreme headaches with
onslaughts of their thoughts harassing me….telling me I
need to do something in order to get the attacks to stop.
15. Induced heart attack symptoms …I thought I was
going to die…. requiring a doctor from the hotel in
Germany who barely spoke English …he gave me an injection
of something that calmed me down…I was surprised they
allowed some type of medication to help me…usually no
medication of any type that they don’t feel I need is
allowed to work in my body.
16. Extreme emotional swings of deep sadness and
despair…extreme anguish of pain….blockage of thoughts….
17. Difficulty praying to God…blocked by them..
18. Difficulty in reading a book….loss of concentration
19. computer problems….changing what I write!
Electronic harassment when trying to type.  Stopping
emails…erasing what I’ve written…changing the lines and
spacing of words automatically while typing as if
everything I’m doing is wrong…making me feel inadequate
and eventually needing to just give up.
20. Television equipment going on the brink
21. All electronics acting up
22. can’t unscrew bottle caps….they make things too
difficult to open
23. Everything I eat or drink has a different taste at
times
24. Smells that come from no where
25. Sleep deprivation
26. Sensory over stimulated
27. Several near death experiences in nightmares
28. Threats through their mental torture that they
will hurt my family members if I do not submit to their
will such as: causing arguments in my children among their
loved ones, causing them depression or distress or anxiety
attacks to the extreme…when I told them I was the cause of
it because I would not submit to my handlers will…my adult
children did not believe me and only caused my loved ones
additional anguish to see their mother so tormented….real
or imagined as they put it….being left with the guilt that
I would not submit even to help a family member tells you
how angry I am at them….ordinarily I would give my life
for them….not being angry at these handlers is just about
impossible for me!
29. During cancer treatments and surgeries in 2000-
2003 they continued to harass me and cause me great mental
and emotional distress …. They used these times
specifically to cause me more harm…they would not let up
until they wanted it to end….during chemotherapy
treatments they would harass me mentally…again because I
would not submit to there will and stop my anger towards
them….they purposefully cause you such anguish or torture
that I just could not forgive them!  Because I wouldn’t
forgive them…I would cry during my whole chemotherapy
treatment in anguish over their harassments toward me.
30. After surgery they made it so the morphine drip
would not work for me to relieve my pain…they made me feel
emotionally distraught by not having the nurses answer me
when I would press the button for them or have the nurses
purposefully not put my table near my bed so I could reach
for Kleenex or water
31. Made me feel extremely guilty for asking for pain
medication when I desperately needed it in the hospital…
caused sleep deprivation in the hospital where not even
the medications given to me would work! Again, because I
would not forgive them for allowing me to have pain
medication when I needed it and again they would torture
me when I asked for pain medication and again they would
not allow me any rest!  I ran fevers after each of my
surgeries.  I believe it was largely due to the distress
they caused me…I healed very slowly…as I had several
reconstructive surgeries after a mastectomy.  Each time
afterward they would put me through hell!
32. Extreme feelings of grief and hopelessness
33. visual disturbances with eyesight…cloudy sometimes…
unable to see well enough to read at times…perfect clarity
at other times…I have 20/30 vision normally
34. visual holograms….such as; cartoon like bunny
rabbits chasing me on the ground…ghost like dark figures
walking down the hall…two white light figures standing in
a bedroom…while looking at the cement in my backyard the
small holes suddenly became large bumps…they would change
it back and forth as they would talk to me in my mind!
35. Scary monsters in nightmares…the last time I ever
had a nightmare was when I was a child….now I get them
just about every night and I’m 53 years old!
36. while wide awake and arguing with them…. they will
induce visions in my minds eye in order to get me to
submit to them such as; induced visions of black spiders
while awake in my minds eye….visions of a child sitting
naked being molested ….sexual innuendoes regarding my Lord
and Savior…anything and everything that is abhorrent,
abrasive, abusive and torturous.
37. While praying to Jesus…I was given a terrible
vision of a sexual nature.  I had not been able to look at
our Lord Jesus for a couple of years fearing my handler
will do that again to me.
38. My handler consistently starves me from praying to
my Lord Jesus to protect me from her.  I can sometimes
pray when I submit to her will first
39. I’m unable to pray the rosary without her
attacking me and harassing me…she says I’m not doing it
right or that I’m not humble enough.
40. Causes me to remember things wrong on purpose
….causes my husband to remember things wrong on purpose
which causes disharmony on purpose.
41. the sensation someone is tapping you on the
shoulder as they speak to you…that was very frightening in
the beginning before I got used to it…especially when you
are all alone in the house…I thought it was a ghost at
first!
42. They manipulate all those around you to cause you
frustration and anger such as; standing in a grocery line
and the person in front of you who only has one or two
items takes about 15 minutes to check out because the
electronics have gone awry or causes them to push the
wrong buttons; or being at a kiosk to get coffee and the
person continually skips over you and you are unable to
give your order; or escalated extreme emotional distress
that causes the person you are with to fly off the handle
for a small reason causing arguments…causing you to work
very hard at keeping your temper in check…causing extreme
emotional swings is a common factor with them; they
manipulate no win scenarios…no matter what you say or do
they will make sure it does not get resolved peacefully.
43. If I dare to go outside and be with people…
inevitably something goes very bad….such as physical and
and psychological attacks…it is very embarrassing to cry
in public…my family does not believe this is really
happening to me and want me to get on medication….they
don’t understand medication will not help me…in order to
appease them I have taken medication and seen
psychiatrists or else my family feels I’m not taking care
of my emotional health….I feel so frustrated!
44. When I speak to them…they change the meanings of
single words I say…causing the whole sentence to mean
something completely different of what I want to say…this
causes me great distress, frustration and anger.

They tell me “they love me”…it makes me sick to my stomach
that they get away with all they do to me and then have
the gall to tell me they love me!  I like the way James
Henry Gaf put it when he wrote his account on the victims
forum page……”they are supremely sanctimonious – smug and
arrogant”.  To them, our rights are crimes, their crimes
are rights”.

That is my story too!  They tell me I have no rights in
living the life I choose for myself...everything I do or
don’t do must be in their time frame and if it doesn’t…
all hell breaks loose…and I mean a living torturous hell…
the days I live to their satisfaction they sill torture me
and tell me it’s because “nothing is free”…they tell me we
are married and that it’s not until I die that we will
part…I’ve lived with this for 16 years (aware of their
presence) …how am I going to survive? I have lost the
desire to try to make any kind of a descent life for
myself because I will never be able to live in safety!
They frighten me to death…it’s as if they put a cast on me…
shove me out the door…then torture me all over again…I
barely survive it!  It is just like in the
series “Stargate SG1” when one of the heroes was being
tortured literally to death and then brought back to life
using a sarcophagus… then he is tortured again…this goes
on for days and days all day long…eventually he gets
rescued!  It is the same with me…the only difference is I
don’t get rescued…I just get rest periods from time to
time!  It’s frightening to live with wondering what they
are going to do to me this day…and then at night I worry
about what type of tortures they are going to inflict on
me and if I’m going to get any sleep that night (they have
a habit of keeping me awake)!
These words were written by James Henry Gaf on the victims
forum page of mind control….it was so perfectly written I
wanted to share it with you…..
“This is essentially the same technology described
brilliantly by John St. Clair Akwei in the document he
submitted in support of his 1992 lawsuit against the US
National Security Agency, published in the April-May, 1996
issue of Nexus magazine (Volume 3, Number 3) under the
title "Covert Operations of the US National Security
Agency." It appears to have developed from Robert Malech's
1976 technology for remote electromagnetic detection of
brain waves (US Patent Number 3,951,134). As Mr. Akwei
attests, it is also possible to broadcast "voices" into
the human brain. Most persons are not aware that this was
accomplished as early as 1974 by Dr. Joseph C. Sharp. “
“Mind-reading devices, machines that make people hear
voices, and weapons that disrupt or control the
functioning of mind and body are present realities.
Tragically, instead of the many positive applications
possible, these technologies are, indeed, being used as
torture weapons against dissidents. “
“Imagine being exposed all day every day to the twenty
most vicious, sleaziest, most obnoxious persons you have
ever met. Imagine not being able to get away from them,
having them monitor your thoughts, impulses, physiological
processes, dreams, fantasies, memories, and all the events
of your daily life. Imagine that they confront,
interrogate, threaten, degrade, and torment you day and
night. Imagine their contemptuous jibes as they obstruct
your every earnest effort. Imagine the humiliation, the
frustration, the fury. The closest parallel is that of
demonic possession. These are not demons, however. They
are real human criminals whom no-one will arrest or
prosecute. “
The struggle for liberty, dignity, and decency, the war
that will determine the fate of human civilization, is not
in a far-off desert or a steaming jungle. The battle is
within the boundaries of your own skin. It is a contest
for ownership of your mind and body.