name: Mary

e-mail: mary@DAClubhouse.net

date: May 9, 2007

do you want your email listed: yes

can others place your information else where on the web: yes

support group: yes

in the event of your dead or missing in action. do you want your personal account to remain on the mcf site: yes

would you care to be an area contact for other victims: yes

area-contact: Electronic / Psychotronics harassment

location: Southern California

your-introduction: First, I want to thank you for having this web site for
those of us who so badly need to feel supported and feel
that we are not alone.  I too feel that this fight to get
rid of these handlers is impossible.  Following is my
story that I would appreciate, if you would post it on the
victims forum page.

My name is Mary and I'm 53 years old.  In hindsight I now
realize these people have been with me for a very long
time.  It started around 1983 when I dislocated my hip in
a water ski accident.  I went to church one day hobbling
along on a cane and the most miraculous thing happened.  I
was listening to the priest talking at the pulpit and when
he left a healing service followed.  I first started
seeing a cloud of light smoke all around the alter and I
thought this was a sign from God.  I was instantly healed
that day from any pain in my hip.  I began having an
incredible closeness with God from that day forward that I
thought was from Him..  It was from Him but I fount later
it was not ONLY HIM!

My Hell started in 1991.  After a couple of years I went
through some terrible personal difficulties that led to
divorce and taking drugs to help me with my personal
tragedies.  That was the biggest mistake of my life!  My
handlers came on board as they showed me that I was
throwing my life down the tubes in a short period of
time.  I had been a good citizen who never committed a
crime otherThrough electronic harrassment, mental and
physical torture they got me off drugs but I landed in a
never ending hell... this is the terrible process they put
me through and now... 16 years later they are still
putting me through it!  I found out that it wasn't God at
all that healed my hip...it was them!  It wasn't God with
the power of the Holy Spirit moving my heart to get closer
to Him and that healed me...It was them.  I was
mordified!  My faith and my ability to pray was being
attacked by these people and I became a lost soul.  In my
heart I knew God had not left me but I was angry with Him
that he would leave me in the hands of these terrible
people!  I hated them for the processes they were putting
me through!

They made me feel like I was being stalked by invading my
house when I wasn't home.  I became paranoid that the FBI
was on my trail and I had better stop taking drugs.  I did
this but the torment did not stop.  In my fear I set up
coke cans in front of my door so I could hear them if they
entered.  During the day I heard the coke cans being
blasted apart.  I ran to the door but no one was there.
Later they told me it was a sound burst that knocked the
cans apart.  I felt everyone was against me at work and
later I was told that my handlers made them say and behave
that way to make me feel paranoid.  They had me beliving
that my family was behind this, then it was the police
behind this, then it was the FBI behind this....eventually
I figured out it was none of them but these handlers
controling everything!  When driving home from work...
cars would pull out in front of me causing me to slam on
my brakes ALL THE WAY HOME.  Later I learned that the
handlers were able to do this just by controling the
people driving the cars...causing them to do this.  At the
time though I thought a whole army of people were out to
get me.

During this time period I became very paranoid and then
the worst thing in my life happened to me.  They started
talking to me.  I could actually hear audible voices in my
head, smell things like gas in my bedroom, falling asleep
with terrible nightmares.  Then the physical attacks
started.  I felt needles in my feet and whole body, I had
unusual skin rashes on my body.  They would paralyze me in
my dreams or dream of satanic attacks.  I would wake up
sick and frightened.  Sexual attacks started and terrible
sexual dreams.  They told me they were in control of
absolutely everything in my mind and body and controled
all the people around me.  People would say and do things
that were only meant for me and they didn't even realize
it.  They had news casters answer questions as if it was
meant for me...they showed they can communicate with
anyone, anywhere, at anytime!

They would put terrible thoughts in my head, they would
make me forget what I was trying to say in the middle of a
sentence, they would make me say things that were not of
my own volition.  They would cause such physical attacks
that I would be traumatized for hours afterwards.  They
then would cause me to calm down with just a flick of
their switch or the turn of a knob.  In tears I would cry
out to God to save me.

I found the victims forum page which helped me to not feel
so alone.  The handlers showed me I was not micro chipped
but that they could do this through sound alone with
satellites to find us.  I've been followed and harrassed
by them on all continents in my travels.  Ruining my
vacations if I do not follow their rules for what they
call Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.

What I want to know is...if they are supposed to be good
samaritans which is what they bombard me with in my
brain.  Where is the safety?  How can one live a
productive life without feeling safe?  They purposely
apply much pressure in the most mundane situations to make
me work harder.  However I find it too difficult to
function when they apply such pressure in my body.  They
increase my heart rate and and apply a hugely
uncomfortable pressure in my vaginal area where I can't
think straight!  At the end of a very difficult day with
them they point out all the things I did not do that day
that they felt I should have done.  Now we are talking
about the most abusurd.  Such things as....I should have
vacumed the third bedroom instead on just doing the other
two or I should have been more polite and considerate to
my husband.  Because I didn't do these things they torture
me endlessly physically and mentally....sometimes with no
sleep for hours on end....I crawl on the floor begging for
God to help me....I scream in such agony my husband will
wake up and try to calm me down....they tell me in my
head "know one can help me".....eventually I feel relief
finally.....usually around 5 am I fall asleep on the couch
with all of this to face when they eventually wake me
up....with only 2 hours of rest....feeling like I had 8
hours of sleep ... but so tormented I don't have the will
to get up.  They tell me if I don't get up and put my nose
to the grind stone it will happen all over again.

I've recently found out from them even if I become perfect
which is impossble...they will still torture and torment
me...for reasons I cannot fathom.  They say things
like "we don't want to make things too easy for you".

I'm afraid to make plans to visit friends or to go on
vacation or to start another job....if they are such good
samaritans why won't they leave well enough alone!  I do
lots of things and still isn't good enough for them!  If I
do nothing it is even worse on me and my family who watch
me suffer with this.

By the way...I am so tormented I started smoking... It had
been years since I smoked and my family can't fathom why I
could do such a thing to myself....this makes me even more
angry with my handlers...I can't seem to get
better!  ....this is another problem that developed
because of them and they have the gaul to impress upon me
that I'm not paying attention to good health practices!
They have the gaul to tell me that I have to go through
there torments without anything to help me cope.  Are they
the crazy ones or what?

I am not crazy....as far as I'm concerned they are the
most unreasonable liars and manipulators on the face of
the earth!  I read other people's accounts and I re live
my own suffering in their pain.  It gets very dark at
times and these handlers... as I call them... cause the
darkness.

God Bless You, for having this website and my prayers are
with you and all the others that under the control of
handlers.

I could use a friend to talk to....anyone out there please
email to me and we'll share stories.

MaryFair@Daclubhouse.net