name: Jluv777

e-mail: Jluv777@surfy.net

alt: Bjla222@yahoo.com

date: August 2nd 2006

do you want your email listed: yes

can others place your information else where on the web: yes

support group: yes

in the event of your dead or missing in action. do you want your personal account to remain on the mcf site: yes

would you care to be an area contact for other victims: yes

area-contact: Electronic / Psychotronics harassment

contact-address: jluv777@surfy.net

location: St. Catharines, Ontario Canada

I have been involved in being ritually abused as well as
being used for electronic harassment and implatation. I
did not realize that I was being used for such things
until I started reading the experiences of other people
online. I would wake up with strange injuries- such as
bruised, knicks and scrapes and soreness in my body. My
big toes and end fingers would be numb and show signs
(that I now know as electricution). My left toenail fell
off for no apparent reason. I have a big scar in the
middle of my back that I have no idea as to how it got
there- but after reading the accounts of many others I
know that sometimes the spinal cord is injured there for
various reasons. I would experience missing time quite
often as well, whole days in fact near the end of living
where I was. I would miss entire sections of the day and
my family would ask with an evil grin what I did that day
or where I was, and I honestly could not recall..

My so called "parents" have always made an effort to
basically in other words poison me and keep me in ill
health for whatever reason their sick drives let them to.
I was constantly ill, and I now realize that the PH level
of my body was so acidic from the various things they were
dosing my food with and the horrible "water filter" (which
I pulled the filter out of once to check and the mere
smell of it nearly made me faint - again, I was completely
oblivious to this- which could be part of the programming
they inserted into my mind) they had at their house, that
I was never in good health. I was in a constant daze. The
room that I was staying in and the internet connection
that I was using was being monitored by them or some
outside group- I know this now because when I started to
read the accounts of the many, many others that were
involved in these terrible things- they started to act
different around me (when you have been around someone
your entire life you start to realize 'differences')
They started to realize that I was putting the pieces of
the puzzle together regarding things that happened in my
life- and they started to let their masks slip off bit by
bit. My mother started saying things like "you are gona
pay with blood" with a laugh and smile, but I knew in my
heart that she was simply not playing around. My mother
was always an over the top holy roller Christian but yet I
knew that secretly she was involved in hard hard drug use
just from the way that she was acting at home, but she
continued to put up the persona. My father was a drunk to
say the least and even when they were putting up the
Christian persona, she would not leave him. I started to
question her and they way she was acting and I realize
that the pastor of the church that my family attended was
also like this when I would sleep over at his house as a
youngster.. (I was friends with the pastor's son.. so I
would often stay over at thier house). I realize now that
the church was most likely a cover front for a clever
Satanic organization just from the way that the pastor's
family acted when I was over at his home. Of course I did
not realize any of this when I was younger and had no idea
that I was being tortured and so on. I believe that I have
a multiple personality that they would bring forth to
torture and molest now that I have read how they will
shatter a mind to use part of it to abuse- keeping their
evil practices secret. I also realize that many of the
other people that were involved in the church just didn't
seem 'right' now that I look back. Also I can remember my
mother always listening to the Bob Larsen radio program
and basically lauging as he talked about ritual abuse.
BTW, If you don't know of Bob Larsen- he is an expert on
the occult and he also deals heavily in cases of ritual
abuse and the other things involved in Satanism and the
occult. I believe him to be an excellent source for
information. Again, I did not realize the truth because of
the candy coated reality they were putting up.
It gets crazier though. I thought I was going crazy when I
started to put the pieces together- but now I am
reaffirmed that there was and is something horrible going
on with my life. My so called "friends" that I met over
the years (all met at work by the way) progressively got
me involved in their drug activites and so on and so forth
and when I started to catch on to the fact that I was
being used for terrible things, they tried to get my into
more than just using- they were trying to get me to grow
marijuana and sell drugs- which I now realize that they
were planning on using such things to get me thrown into
prison for a very long time. This was the most shocking
thing about my experience, the fact that these people were
all inter-connected in trying to destroy my life. It is no
coincidence that when they started to realize that I was
catching on to their little game they were playing with
me, they tried to cash me out so to speak. My other best
friend was involved in the occult, he openly admitted that
he was "evil". But I never payed much heed to him because
he always treated me kindly when I was around him and we
had many good times together. When I started to realize
what was going on in my life- I tried to avoid him because
of the general feeling that I was getting inside that he
generally was NOT a good person and in fact was also using
me for sexual and occult purposes. The air of conversation
that he expressed when he would visit my home and speak
with my mother also leads me to believe that he knew her
very well, much more than a person who has had limited
contact with someone. I can remember a time (one of the
last times that he spent time with me.. alone) when he
said the term "dickgirl" 2 times and I had missing time.
Basically I started praying about it and seeking God,
which I had started to become very devout to and I felt
that I ABSOLUTELY had to get out of there. I was jobless
at the time so I sold everything I could and escaped to
Canada to the city of St. Catharines in the Niagara region
of Ontario where I am staying at a homeless shelter
currently. I am seeking God and fasting while I try to get
a work permit and start a new life. But I realize that
there are many many occultists here as well and many
strange people following me around wearing sunglasses all
the time always talking on cellphones. I know the Lord God
is with me though and I know he has a plan for my life. I
am trying to find others in Canada who are part of a Grass-
roots resistance to get help. I really need to find some
genuine people. Please help me. Even online connections
will do.

there is much more to my story,but I must go the librarian
Is telling me my time is up.
Benjamin A.